Sunday, August 5, 2007
i've not been posting.
thanks to someone.
someone out there.
yupp.
that was for brendan.
i'm kinda lazy to return his tag.
not in the mood too.
anyways.
i wish upon a star.
just sometimes.
i can be an orphan.
with no parents.
no one who cares about me.
no kin or relative in this world.
seriously.
but just sometimes.
and i mean it
cause i think.
they simply bring me more hurt.
than joy.
honestly speaking.
and i'm sick of it.
after that.
when THEY realise.
that they're in the wrong.
they just come in.
"sorry bout just now"
thats it.
walk out.
do they actually mean it..
like hello.
you say sorry.
not trying to do it again.
but.
when it happens about thrice a week.
then i dont think the apology is sincere.
so why bother saying.
think it'll make me feel better.
well.it wont.
cause you dont mean it.
so you're just wasting your time to walk to my room.
your breath to say it.
and the saliva in your mouth.
so just save it.
rotten day today.
like HELLO?!?!
for the sake of you.
who keeps grumbling that i dont spend enough time with you.
i went with you for the WHOLE of today.
and you know what?
all i did.
with them.
was just have breakfast/lunch
and pack stuff.
is that called spending time with me?
and the amount of work i could do with that.
so because of that.
i'm staying up late to complete my work.
and i get SCREAMED at.
for not sleeping now.
when i have school tomorrow.
and for not doing my work earlier.
like i have the time?
and when i call my friend.
to ask about a particular question.
then she helped me larh.
then when i moved on to the next question.
didnt need her help anymore.
we just talk abit more.
while i did math larh.
and it was constucting geometry.
so didnt really need any brains.
which is why i could talk.
and she came in.
"demanded to know why i wasnt sleeping.
when i said i had work.
she said it was way past my sleeping time.
that i should have done my work earlier.
and if i'm doing work.
why the hell am i talking to phone.
so just shut up, put down the phone and quickly finish your work."
thats exactly what someone said.
hah.
and you know what.
the person i was talking to heard it.
how
not embarrassing.
to have a relative
i shant mention who in particular
who treats me this way.
anyways.
i'm damn pissed now.
and i'm like considering.
or lets say procrastinating in doing my QT.
and i've been feeling really dry this past week.
apart from that.
i've had a lousy week.
thanks to someone too.
and i think shes coming to my room again.
to scream at me.
cause i just heard her door opening...
going now.
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