ANGEL

Sunday, January 20, 2008

I'm home alone now, well not really. With two maids around, well they are people, but they seem invisible to me. Thats basically cause i'm not actually close to them. I talk to them and all, but they're different.Different from family members, different from friends, different from people who can give me warmth and love. Thats something i long for, at this point of time in my life.
Everyone seems cold, like aliens in this world. Not everyone, but you in particular.I thought you suddenly changed. Back to your old self, back to how we used to be, back to the way we talked, back to the way we acted. Like close friends, but nothing more than that. But i guess i'm wrong, cause you're still that cold unfeeling freak who took my friend away. The friend i was close to, the friend i enjoyed taking to, the friend i always treasured. I dont know what you did to him, I dont know where he has gone. I just know you replaced him.
Ignite was mega-powered. Especially today.Those sad moments where Pastor Joakim spoke of those who willingly sacrificed their lives, for OTHERS. They felt that since they were saved, they would die better than the others, who werent saved. It was really touching and all, but thats basically the summary of the summon. I guess. Yupp. OTHERS, the really strong word. I long for the day where i'll love others, love them more than myself. The day where i'll be willing to give up my life to save another stranger.

if only your heart's not that cold
if only you didnt speak that way
i wouldnt be that sad today
i wouldnt feel that pierce in my heart
each time i talk to you
i hope for something better
but you kill my hope
and replace it with nothing
leaving me there to bled
out in the cold
all by myself

i thank you for that.
its really appreaciated.
its not worth for me to cry over you
and i'm sorry
but i've given up on you
i've changed my mindset to believing that you would never change
back to when i knew you at first

i wish we never collided
i wish we never met
that way, i'll be smiling much more often
i'll be a much happier person

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