Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Things are brightening up.And gladly to say, i'm not the only one feeling slightly stressed. So yay. That proves my sanity is still with me.
Anyways. I finally had a really good night sleep for ONCE since like 201207. Honestly, my sleeps have been disturbed by either nightmares, or i simply wake up and cannot fall back to sleep. Normally, i would sleep through the night, without disturbance. So i finally managed to sleep throughout with no horrible dreams at all. Heh. Maybe its cause i finally felt my little sense of security, well thats cause i slept in my parents room last night. I doubt i'll ever grow out of it. Haha. So i'm planning to sleep there tonight too.
And surprisingly, after my brother knew that i dreamt that he died and all that, i've sort of bonded closer to him. Heh. Yesterday night, he stopped playing his computer when i went into the room to ask for a hug, without grumbles or irritance. Cause normally, he doesnt like to be disturbed when he is using his computer. Today, i talked more than usual to him, and went to his room to read my lit book while talking and listening to the music in his room at the same time. Heh, but i read it on the bed cause he was using his table. And obviously, the bed is tempting. So i decided to close the book and have a nap. That was to catch up for the lost of sleep over the past few days. I intended to wake up at 5 (i slept at 4.30), but i slept till six instead.Anyways, my brother was kind enough to turn off my alarm for me, i think. Heh, cause it was not on snooze when i woke up, but it was off. So other than him, theres no one else, cause it was in his room.
Later in the day, i went to the Chinese doctor, for my ankle. And it was super painful the way the sinseh press, and i had to put the "electrical pads" thing on my leg as usual. I got use to the "shock" eventually. Anyways, it was so bad that it kinda affected my back, and the way i was walking. So it kinda explains how i slipped from the staircase that day for no reason. Like my right leg was on the lower stair, and when my left leg went down, but right leg suddenly buckled and i fell on my arse. It was super painful la, i could not figure out the cause of the accident at that time.
You hurt me more and more each day. Can you just be nicer and stop this torment? I'm beginning to doubt you, I'm beginning to doubt myself. I'm beginning to wonder if i'm finally seeing your true colours. And i dont really like how you're making me feel and think. Cause i simply cant face reality and accept the face that you are really like that. Will you change?
OUT
-angel.
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